I’m going to miss the blonde. I’m dying my hair back to brown/red (the top pick is tonight, the other from the summer).
I also left off my last post with an incomplete thought. Yes, a song came on while I was at desk – they play all day – but this song made me think of boy-side calling me. Drunk. Having fun at a strip club with a friend. He told me this song made him think of me. I got all swoony. S/he isn’t romantically gushy. For a guy who’s at least half girl, he’s not nearly as expressive as I’d like, but I savour the bits s/he does give me. The sassy tart. 🙂
We had a long talk last night. I don’t quite know what to think of it all. S/he said something that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about.
“Sometimes I feel like I’ll never be able to give you enough.”
Makes me sound greedy, doesn’t it?
I’m filled with lots of feelings about that. I am absolutely content when we are together. I honestly want for nothing, I am so soul deep satisfied. It’s during the week, I miss him/her. Yesterday and today I have felt achy with it. There is that part of me that says, with all the awesome I do get, can’t I just be satisfied? Greedy and achy. *sigh*
I will continue to be brave, and love him/her without reserve, with my whole goddamned heart, no quarter given. Balls deep, baby.
A post from the archive. 😊
Misty and I have come a long way. And we still face relationship hurdles (because life), but today we have a better understanding of our partnership, what we both want individually, while encouraging each other’s sense of adventure. It’s pretty magical.