I’m trying to expand the heart… think of it as infinite. I’m not leaving parts of it behind, I’m opening up wider… 

It’s a theory I’m running with.

Things with him/her are complicated and simple all at once. The simplicity is that I’m in love. I want her/his happiness. It’s her/his insides that I am completely head over heels for, and the fact that it is wrapped up in a body that turns me on like I didn’t think was possible, is icing on the fucking cake! A delicious, I’m going to lick the icing off in naughty ways cake. God, I can’t get enough of him/her!

The complicated part is that I am the last (latest?) to the party – s/he is in an open marriage, but I am more than just a play partner to him/her, and that is something unexpected. As unexpected as all this is to me too. His wife has reservations about this turn of events, and I get that completely. I wish I could tell her I am not trying to turn their lives upside down, or disrupt their family. At all. I respect that she is his/her primary relationship and wife. I don’t know how this works. I’m making this shit up as I go, but I do know I don’t want him/her unhappy. 

I don’t need to tell you all how tenacious I can be when I value something. Here is a man/woman who is 100% worth it! Kind, honest, hard-working, smart, creative, sexy-as-fuck, funny, adventurous, respectful… A wonderful soul with a delicious bad streak that makes me swoony. You would all love him/her, I wish I could introduce you. 

Saturday night feels like a million years away…