(picture by me)

I was terribly broken

my insides a mash of sadness and doubt


and questions


why am I not good enough


what is wrong with me


who am I


I’ve come all this way… where do I want to be


and the cold, wet, heavy, squeezing that


my heart would never love again


I didn’t want it to


No one could make me


I dug a moat


I built a wall


I wanted to feel lighter


I didn’t know how to heal myself


I needed to lay my burdens down, and walk away from them


So I left them on a bench, at the Met in New York


let go


made a wish

And then I met you