And with Christmas so close, I thought I should throw him in there.
I have been swamped with life. I have posts that have come and gone half a dozen times that I wanted to sit down and write. I just wrote Misty a giant text that had to be converted to send. My phone should pop up with a message “fuck lady, send a god damned email.”
I’m filled with thoughts. Some wonderful and warming, some that make me cry. I look at it like, if I died today, would I have any regrets? And that is a big no… so that is a very good thing. I am living the way I want too, as best as I can, given all situations – money, time, love
I love Misty and her male alter ego. I love his/her whole damn self. This road we are on is winding, and I find myself sometimes afraid, unsure of where this leads – where it can lead. I want to send his wife a Christmas present. I want to bridge the gap between us.
I have to throw my household together as best I can for the arrival of my folks tomorrow. I am so not ready. My vacuum is broken. I wish I had about 3 more days to get things organized.
I’m swearing like a sailor today… fuck. I’ve had chocolate, coffee, the Shins, and a good emotional dump for breakfast.
I need to email you Anna!! And Sue!! When I got your messages they were like warm hugs – thank you. 🙂
Mr and Mrs H – I often think of you two when I am lost on this road with Misty. Your love is always an inspiration. A light on the path.
Kinkyminx – you are in my heart everyday. I am sending up positive vibes into the universe, praying for your happiness. You deserve it.