Today I wish for calm seas. Or calmer ones. Ones that didn’t feel so stupidly girly and emotional.

Tomorrow is court. Whatever happens, it will be an expensive, emotionally raw day. Mike is the one who is dragging me to this, I had hoped we’d be divorced via a few letters… Nope. He wants to do this the hard way.

Misty is away. I miss her/him everyday. My heart feels super heavy today, as I think about the state of things. 2 more weeks…

My kids are having a great time visiting their Dad. They come home Sunday. Feels harder that they are away for tomorrow. That I am alone.

I’m tired. It’s rainy and cold and I need a hug. And I could sure use a hand with this ship.