I should be working…

But I am reminiscing. I miss our crazy nights out. Coming home when the sun comes up, meeting interesting people, dancing, making out and the taste of your lipstick. We don’t have as many lipstick nights these days, though we have made the best of the stay in Covid nights.

And I’m thinking about new things/developments…

Interestingly, a new person has wiggled into my thoughts. Misty knows all about him, a very submissive sweet thing. We talked about him while we were all cuddled up, post fooling around yesterday.

“He is cute AND interesting – when does that happen?” I said, my head on his/her chest, listening to the beat of his heart while I played with his soft penis. We both laugh.

“It is a rare thing! And even rarer for you to be interested!” S/he says. And it’s true, I don’t let people into my inner insides. I am always a bit detached. Call it One-shit-kicking-too-many to the heart. I wonder if I should try and squash these feelings before it hurts me.

We talk a bit about how he makes me feel, what I like about him and what turns me on.

“He has a teeny tiny penis and it’s just so… cute! It’s the strangest thing how I want to make him do things and be so bossy and yet cuddle him up at the same time. It’s different.”

I am a switch – I can be very submissive, and sometimes this other side of me comes out. I am not rough or mean (I don’t think) but the idea of putting him over my knee definitely makes me feel tingly and lightheaded.

I feel SO lucky that I have Misty’s love and support while I explore this and this lovely person. Incredibly lucky.

(me nye 2017)