Early on when Sweet boy and I were messaging, he sent me this post, and I saved it in my drafts.

Sometimes he would say things like, “Good night Ms-Rebelheart, if that even is your real name.” Just goofy and fun. Sometimes he’d call me Red. And I’d call him Blondie. I’m posting these drafts because I want to remember the little things.

One of his tumblrs got shut down, the one we messaged from, so I kind of felt a little like I lost him all over again. All of our messages and shared pictures, gone.

We are going to try friendship. I can’t turn my feelings off, but I am trying to manage them. Misty helps. Tumblr friends help. Obviously it’s been on my mind a lot (hello lots of posts about him), but I knew even when my feelings started he was always destined for someone else. We live thousands of miles apart! As much as I wanted him as my very own, that was only ever going to be in short visits and online. But we never made it that far.

But we enjoy chatting, and HE invited me to be friends on facebook, so it’s not like it’s all in my head!

Like I said in my other post, I have all these half written drafts about him/us… this one I wanted to post. It goes against getting over someone protocol, and possibly good common sense, but I am doing it anyway. Over the next little bit I may post more.

What can I say, I am a rebel.