There is no magic potion to heal a sad heart. No ten step program. No book to read. It’s an individual process. I haven’t been doing a very good job of it so far.

One of my favourite things about tumblr is all the amazing people, from all over the world, that I get to meet and interact with. You guys are the BEST. And for that reason alone I stay here.

So why take a break? Because so many things here remind me of what I thought I had and can’t have now. There is airing a wound out to heal and then there is picking and jabbing at it.

I’ve tried not posting stuff that reminds me of him, and I’ve tried the opposite. I’ve tried writing it out here, and I’ve tried being impersonal. Whatever I seem to do or not do, it’s not bringing out the best in me. Or even the okay in me. I want to be okay.

I’m not trying to make a thing about me taking a pause, but I wanted to let people know so no one was left with radio silence. When my friend died, and I couldn’t reach her on here it was terrible. We connect in this wonderful space, the tumblrverse, but we all have real lives out there and anything can, and does, happen.

Until then, all you wonderful sexy humans, heaps of love and orgasms,

Becca