Some days are a struggle. 

Today was one of those days. I got a letter from child care subsidy saying I owe them an overpayment. *sigh* Just when you think you are getting ahead… 

But more painful and frustrating than financial woes, are the heart woes. Tomorrow is Tuesday. And even though I am working to heal and get on with things, it is just so fucking HARD. He’s such an incurable bastard… and I miss him. Bah! You don’t need to lecture me, believe me, I know how deeply fucked up that is. Frankly, I question whether or not I need more therapy than him! It’s hard on my self esteem, battling this. I’m already feeling old and gross, tack onto that, that I recognize my own stupidity… well, it’s easy to negative self talk myself into a nice pity party. Drinks on me. 

So to continue my bastardization of the 14 (16? ) days of Awesome – I’m pulling out day 9 from the sequence:

Day 9. What friendships lift you up when you need it?

I am so blessed here – I want to go through and list everyone, and why, but I’m feeling the weight of this damn day, so quick shout out to Jill, Kinkyminx, Karin, Amanda, Janis, Anna, Sue, K and Kim – where is a girl without her posse? When you need someone to give you a comforting shoulder, smack upside the head, or help with the tarp and shovel? You guys have really been there – thank you. You are amazing women who lift me up. I’m better for knowing you. 

For fitness, today I started a Jillian Michaels yoga challenge with my co-worker Jo. She and I were dripping with sweat by the time it was over, and my triceps hate me. It’s a good hate. 

I’ll see you guys on the other side of Tuesday.