This is the one I do over and over. The hamster wheel.
But I keep trying. I have kept trying to love him. Even when it is quite clear he has no real want or need of it/me. Even when he says otherwise.
So I start at the beginning again.
Soon I will be hitting the milestone of “meeting” him on tumblr. And all that first, getting to know you, glow. Then physically meeting him. The next few months are going to suck.
*deep cleansing breath*
Things That Heal an Achy-Breaky Heart #9
There will be days that are harder for one reason or another; because they mark a milestone, or hit close to home, or make things more real. Because of reminders, or dates on the calendar, or events you would have attended together.
Breathe. Slowly in through your nose, then out through your mouth. Really deep, really deliberate.
Start again from the beginning, take care of yourself, distract yourself, breathe. You’re gonna be just fine. Fall 7 times, get up 8.
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