And Repeat.
Low, low, lows… and a change of tumblr scenery was in order. So here I am. I signed off with a post on my old tumblr saying basically “thanks for the fish”, and I received some lovely messages, which made me rethink leaving tumblr all together, and also gave me hope that I may post there again one day. I like it here – this is a great place to express yourself and feels like the coffee house I’m a regular at – it’s cozy and comfortable and I can people watch. I didn’t want to go, but I needed to change my focus a bit.
So while I was closing the door and turning the lights out, a woman emailed me with this quote, saying it came to her when she read my last post:
“It’s like in the Great Stories, the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened?But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer. Those are the stories that stayed with you, that meant something even if you were too young to understand why. But I think I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going because they were holding on to something-that there’s some good in the world, and it’s worth fighting for!”
When I emailed back to say thank you, I said I hoped my story would be one of the Great ones. And it was in that moment where I had a tiny bubble of hope. Delicate and small, but there. It had been the first time in ages where I *hoped* for more. It felt good. We got to chatting after that, and I’ve since made a new tumblr friend. That also feels really good.
So this thanksgiving, I am giving thanks, for a few things today. A phone call. Being tenacious. A new tumblr start (that I designed and coded myself! ha!). Hope. And friends new and old, for making me feel wonderful today. All blessings. A very good start indeed, Mr Frodo.